Smellix's Blog

lost the internet because i moved :/ now the love of my life’s moving an hour away and i have no car or license to go see her but thank god i have money to bus it there or i’d lose it, she said she loved me again, intentionally this time not accidently and she ment it, even if it doesn’t mean we are back together it makes me so much more secure with everything, still going to take her out and have fun and keep making as much effort as i am now, i never want this to die down or end she’s smiling like she use to when we just first started dating and i missed that so much, i haven’t been so happy in so long i think i want it to stay this way i want to to keep the smiles and laughs coming it’s so lovely not fighting and just enjoying eachothers company. i am so inlove with her and i’m never going to fuck up again i’m so determined to be hers and have her be mine, one thing that hurt was how all the guys swooped in as soon as i lost her to try and take her away… they don’t even know her not even as a real friend, if they did know her they would probably love her to cause she is just that amazing but it hurt that they only went for her because fuck me dead she is the most beautiful girl you would ever see, i don’t exaggerate cause it’s my opinion, besides why else would all these guys go for her, she must be gorgeous, hot and sexy if they are trying to get her… i’ve never met someone as beautiful as her and i’m happy with that cause she’s the only girl for me and she is just that damn amazing and gorgeous :) it makes me smile when them guys comment on her photo’s saying shit like veddy niaceeee, i smile because i know that they’ll never have her they’ll never make her feel the way i do and they’ll never put in the effort i do because i truly do love her and i do everything i can for her, they wouldn’t cause they just want her they don’t actually like or know her, no one will know her like i do :3 she is special and amazing and i’m using her computer right now cause i’m staying at her house, because i’m lucky hehe… idc if she see’s this or not but i just hope she knows i’m never going to stop putting in effort and i’m going to do my best in everything we do <3 i really hope i can spend the rest of my life with her, so excited to move to cairns next year so i can live near her seeing as she is moving away, i’m going to misss her so much D: <3 I love you beautiful, my baby girl, my Emily May-Louise Hitchings <3